Before emotions become emotions, there is a felt sense, a subtle energy detected with refined somatic awareness, offering us a gateway to basic intelligence that has nothing to do with what we think we know or who we think we are, thus non-self referential. Sounds lovely, right? basic intelligence and all that, problem is we feel very uncomfortable in that place where we cannot fit the awareness to some kind of a concept to support our sense of self, something familiar, like a movie we watched before and have an idea where it’s going so we can relax and watch it again. As comfy as it sounds (the movie thing, that is), once the felt sense becomes a self referential concept – good, bad, I like it, I can’t stand it, let me see what I can do about it etc. – we lose access to basic intelligence along with the space that comes with it, and from here to being reduced to a closed in predicted story line with a definite solid emotion, there is no path…
Basic intelligence allow us to relate directly with what’s going on, therefore respond appropriately.
Take negativity for example, on an energetic level it has a distinct vulnerable energy, somewhat defensive, but it is just an energy, and around that energy there is space, which allows us to stay with that energy, embrace that energy until we become that energy, not trying to run away from it, or push it away. By doing so, we become fearless, we know negativity from within, it is part of who we are, we have no need to react or create a whole story line loaded with emotions to hold on to for our dear life because we feel uncomfortable with that energy. Furthermore, negativity as a felt sense offers a distinct sharp awareness that allows us to see our situation for what it is and respond with relevance and accuracy. It is not about us any more, it is a clear communication between the situation and the energy it brings with it. We don’t have to go into a whole ego trip of resentment, and start planning the next step, which is a waste of time and energy, plus it has no relevance in reality. It is just the ego freaking out and seeking ground.
In meditation we practice accessing the awareness of the felt sense energy and staying with it as long as needed for basic intelligence to arise. Once it happens we are granted with the felt sense of knowing that is free of self and other, which is ground free of dependency.